Girly Crap

Well, i still regret getting the depo to this day. i kept saying "oh ive been skinny all my life im sure the depo wont make me fat". well, now im fat. im not sure but i believe ive gained about 20lbs!! where? my waist, stomach, boobs and ass. i now have love handles. what the fuck??!! tonight im pissed off and im going to start doing something about losing this weight. i need to get back into my size 0 jeans.

here are things im going to do

- get a waist clincher *****....2

buy a scale to monitor my weight *

add fruits and veggies to my diet. e.g apples and cabbages *****

- take my vitamins everyday!! (1500mg MSM, 5000mcg biotin, 1400mg flaxseed oil, 1000mg vitamin C with some added vits) *****

- do a colon/total body cleanse ***** .....1

- drink more waterrrrr, 2 litres a day *****

- get some real green tea not the fake one im drinking ***

- no meals after 7.30 PM (this will be hard) ****

-NO CHEATING…NO SODA. none of my beloved coke *****

My boyfriend, joe has told me not to get a scale and a few secs ago, a lady suggested the same thing. so the idea is to monitor the weight loss with the way your clothes feel. i might do this spend the money on the body cleanser instead

Ok, he’s getting on my nerves. he was talking about some stupid 7 foot tall guy and i was listening and browsing at the same time and he decided to close my laptop. wtf??? i told him he was rude and he said i was rude by not listening to him. ok, im not interested in listening to some stupid story so why should i have to listen. he says he listens to anything i say. well, i certainly wouldnt continue talking about stuff if you told me you werent interested in listening to me.

i just wanna be alone right now cos im fucking pissed off

Weird, i tried to make this post using opera 9 beta but it was messing up. worked well with opera 8.54. anyhoo…..

im feeling sorta down today. well, just this moment. i got denied for work study at school. reason: not enough financial need. what the fuck?! so yeah i hafta go job hunting tomorrow cos i fucking hate my job.

im listening to james blunt at the moment. hmm…i gotta check my account to see if i got my direct deposit so i can buy and pay for the accounting study guide. i sorta like accounting. very interesting. and err….i gotta study for the banking and finance quiz on monday. bleh

lately, ive been thinking about my exes. this started abotu 3 days ago. at first it was thomas, then jim and now that other one. i guess it’s because joe and i dont get to hang out as much. i know i shouldnt but everything is just wishful thinking. right?