Girly Crap

I ordered the Stila Illuminating Powder Foundation in 90 watts and it looks like its too light….I bought it for 20 bucks….i dont have another 20 bucks and anoter and another. i need to try this thing on so i can buy the right shade

Well, i go to nordstrom at 4. I took the time to walk around the shoe department and to make a final check of my attire in the restroom and took a pic. I was feeling confident so i took the elevator to the customer service. The guy was in a meeting to i waited a while for him and there was another girl there to see him. Another girl came in after i did. I was the best dressed out of all 3.

I was the 2nd person he called in and he commented on the uniqueness of my 1st and last name. Nigerian and Italian. shrug
I signed a some papers which were printouts of the application i filled online. These are the questions i was asked:

What would you do in a situation where a customer was very upset?
-What would you do if you had a lot of things to do at the same time/.
-Give me an example of a situation where you had to be a leader
-Give me an example of a situation where a customer needed help and you helped them?

I think i gave some pretty good answers except one where my answer was vague

Ive learned a lot from past relationships, friends(online and offline) relationships and just from everywhere. This also applies to getting hit on by guys!!

If a guy hits on you on the streets, that is disrespectful. Any sensible guy wouldn’t hit on just anyone driving/walking. Only classless women would actually pay attention to men when they do that.

If a guy stands you up, never again. There are far too many communication devices these days for him to have any kind of excuse for committing such an unpardonable offense.

If you give a guy your number and he calls you anytime before 10am, dont pick up the phone and personally, i would never talk to the guy again. That implicates desperation and why is he desperate?

This is from someone’s standpoint and i agree: "I get very suspecious of anyone under 30 claiming to make 300K a year, has luxury cars, expensive electronics, and expensive property." yes, i would be suspicious and would need proff to show how he made the money.

If a man keeps bringing stuff he wants you to do for him either out of bed or in it and you have told him you’re not comfortable with doing it, get one leg out the door.

if you made a mistake of sleeping with a guy, get over it however you want to and move on It’s nothing to beat yourself over the head with. Learn from your mistakes.

Dont settle for less than you’re worth or you deserve.

If all a guy talks about is your body part (boobs, butt, back, etc), he’s not your soulmate dont be f*cking stupid. he’s just after your body. If you’ve only just met the dude, he shouldn’t be talking about anything more personal than your eyes or in general terms about how pretty you are

DO NOT date your ex’s best friends, brothers and whatnot except if you dont mind being passed around.

Follow your instincts. A woman’s intuition is rarely wrong.

if a guy’s friends or family make jokes or say stupid things about you and he doesnt come to your rescure by putting a stop to it, you might want to bring out your luggage to start packing.

Except if you just want to have fun or want a fuck buddy, dont sleep with a guy if you think you dont know enough about him. If you’re skeptical, wait. If he cant wait till you’re ready, he’s not worth it.

If you’re just dating, in a relationship with someone, i wouldnt advise you to put your ALL into the relationship or open up as much as you would if you married to them. You dont have a ring on your finger so you dont owe them anything.

Snooping….if you think there’s a reason to snoop, go ahead and ask the guy. If you think he’s lying (woman’s intuition???), bring out the spy kit and get to work.

If you feel like you have to have sex with someone to keep them or their attention, pause and really examine who and what that person means to you.

MEN don’t play games. Insecure little boys who need material possessions to cloak their inadequacies do. How can you tell the difference? Time. Time is the only way to divide the men from the boys, and its not foolproof.

You can’t fcuk a man into loving you. Believe me, if you could almost every woman in America would have a harem of men by now. This is an easy mistake to make. Women tend to invest sex with emotionalism that many men don’t feel. Always remember, no matter how good the coochie is, there’s somebody down the street with better coochie. Men don’t fall in love with our vaginas. They fall in love with our virtue.

I am honestly not trying to slam anyone here but I am beyond tired of hearing about gullible women getting mesmerized by a dude behind the wheel of a car. Does anyone realize how easy it is to drive a "nice" car? It takes the least amount of income and credit to "secure" the keys to a vehicle that’ll make most people double take. Driving a nice car is not an accomplishment. Being able to pay for it, legally, without jeopardizing your home and your future IS.

A man who is interested will call you regularly and ask you out well in advance of the date. Again, he respects you and your time and will behave accordingly. No booty calls. Any man trying to come by your place late at night has already been out with his real girlfriend and is just trying to get some from you.

Dating really isn’t as complicated as we make it. Men are actually fairly simple creatures—we’re the complex ones A man who wants you will act like he wants you. No games, no confusion. Why? Because he’s afraid that if he doesn’t act right some other guy will come along and steal you away. (Remember, I’m talking about MEN here, not little boys.)


Disclaimer:

Im not married and have never been in a succesful relationship so please dont make this your relationship/dating bible.

Im craving hors d’oeuvres and cheese and crackers right now with some white wine….
-OMG Bloomingdale’s just sent me an email to attend their career fair!! I had applied the same day with nordstrom and this chick who suggested it was asking if i had heard from them. Ive never been in a bloomingdale’s though but my mom has and loves the place. I dunno if i want to go..
-I need to buy a shirt to wear with my skirt suit for the interview tomorrow. here’s the suit btw…

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I know i’ve been complaining lately…but i know i’m thankful for a lot of things.

Im thankful that im alive this morning
Im thankful for my extended and nuclear family
Im thankful for my father. that man is amazing and i want to be a female version of him
Im thankful for my mother…i am a strong black, African woman just like she is!!
Im thankful for my older brother….his quiet strong self.
Im thankful for my younger brother. His loyalty to the family is exceptional. I thank God for his life. That he’s alive and doing well in school.
Im thankful for the man in my life. He might not know this, but i’m truely glad i met.
Im thankful that i have no serious diseases or illnesses
Im thankful for my migraines
Im thankful for my body. From head to toe…from my soft, fine hair to my dark brown eyes to my sparse lashes, to my mole/beauty mark to my full lips, to my amazing smile, to my neck, to my gorgeous boobs to my shapely waist to my slim hips to my nice butt to my long legs, to my feet, to the toes on my feet!! Dont forget my gorgeous fast growing fingernails!!
Im thankful for school and that im doing good
Im thankful for my current job and the future jobs.
Im thankful for past friends, present ones and future ones. This applies to acquintances.
Im thankful for past relationships because they have taught me a lot and have made me what i am today. Yes, people do learn from their mistakes.
Im thankful for my Race and Nationality.

And the most important, im thankful that I’m alive

I ran into an old friend. She asked me about Joe and i told her we had broken up. She was so surpised. She said she thought i was serious about him and she acted really shocked…
it was so embarassing. lol. 
I did realise that the only good thing(s) that came out of the relationship is that
i know what my wedding dress will be and
-i dont want a cheap ass engagement ring Comments (0)

Well, hung out with him and he talked, talked, and talked. Im not sure what he was trying to say or do? He confuses the hell out of me. I just smiled and nodded and let my mind wander. I used to hang on to his every word back then. He is fatter…like me…lol and is less attractive and he still smokes. What is with me and smokers???  

I finally got called for an interview with nordstrom. Im excited. i texted Thomas to tell him and he hasnt replied…whatever.

Since we were at Lennox, i decided to get a skirt suit from Macys…i have a pant suit but i always wanted a skirt suit. Im excited and nervous. I got home and asked for advice. ive been able to get 
interview tips concerning nordstrom directly. I’m just going to put this in God’s hands. 

Oh….its official…everyone is having sex except me. I guess i wont be getting any until sometime next year since i leave in less than 3 weeks. I have no sex drive anyway so i dont give a shit….. 

Im lonely…...:(

I miss an old friend. I hate when i miss him like this because everytime i try to stop talking to him, i start missing him and when we talk, he always raises my spirit. He is in town at the moment and he even came to work and kept me company and took me home after we closed. he is so sweet sometimes and i dont know why i push him away. Ok, i know why….he still thinks he has a chance with me. Thats impossible. He is a really good friend and he could be a better one if he stops talking about a relationship that happened 3 years ago and keep bringing up marriage and kids and stupid shit like that.

Im kinda having problems right now. Someone else who is also in town also wants to see me. I agreed to have dinner with him tomorrow evening cos his plane leaves on sunday morning. I dont miss him and he is old news but he is very good company and we have a LOT of fun together. Throughout today, i kept thinking about cancelling but whats the point. I havent hung out with any sensible person in a while.


Im really lonely right now and depressed too. i just want to go to work, school, stay home and just be by myself. I dont want to talk to 
anyone on the phone and i dont NEED anyone to comfort me or whatever. I dont want to be 
touched, smiled at or whatever. LEAVE ME THE HELL ALONE. 

We closed at 12 midnight at work and i have to be back at 9am. I got the two tennis shoes for Dotun and a pair of tim boots. I think thats it for now. i would buy more but im waiting for a better sale

I love this song….....

I don’t get many things right the first time
In fact, I am told that a lot
Now I know all the wrong turns, the stumbles and falls
Brought me here

And where was I before the day
That I first saw your lovely face?
Now I see it everyday
And I know

That I am
I am
I am
The luckiest

What if I’d been born fifty years before you
In a house on a street where you lived?
Maybe I’d be outside as you passed on your bike
Would I know?

And in a white sea of eyes
I see one pair that I recognize
And I know

That I am
I am
I am
The luckiest

I love you more than I have ever found a way to say to you

Next door there’s an old man who lived to his nineties
And one day passed away in his sleep
And his wife; she stayed for a couple of days
And passed away

I’m sorry, I know that’s a strange way to tell you that I know we belong
That I know

That I am
I am
I am
The luckiest

Well, i had a migraine last night and took my prescription med. At 4 am, i was wide awake. At 4.45, i decided to join the black friday shoppers. I just got back and so far, The only things i was able to buy was Dotun’s MP 3 player, some beauty products and 2 pairs of sunglasses for myself. Im broke but i cant stop shopping…i still have more stuff on my wishlist. So far, this is what ive gotten:

-Stila illuminating powder foundation
-NARS oil free foundation
-Creative MP3 player
-Electric blue eyeliner…woohoo!!

http://www.google.com/search?client=opera&rls=en&q=Centchroman&sourceid=opera&ie=utf-8&oe=utf-8

Im seriously looking into ordering this. It’s 80 cents but shipping is 25 bucks for 1 pack which consists of 8 pills. That is a supply for 2 months. I will order 2 packs(4 month supply). If you dont hear from me, i probably died. LMAO. Joking….ive done my research and people have been using it for years

From wiki:


Centchroman is non-steroidal form of birth control that is marketed in India, under the trade name Saheli®. Centchroman is a pill which is taken once per week. Centchroman has been available in India since the early 90s, but is not available or in the process of becoming available elsewhere.

Method of action

Centchroman (ormeloxifene) is a SERM, or Selective Estrogen Receptor Modulator. It causes ovulation to occur asynchronously with the development of the uterine lining. More specifically, it causes ovulation to occur sooner than it normally would in a woman’s cycle, while causing the lining of the uterus to build more slowly. If fertilization occurs, implantation will not be possible.


Usage

Centchroman is used as a weekly oral contraceptive. This is touted as a major advantage by manufacturers and users alike. Hormonal birth control pills must be taken at the exact same time each day. In the case of the progesterone only pill, a delay of as little as one hour can trigger ovulation (and the risk of pregnancy). Centchroman’s weekly schedule is an advantage for women who prefer an oral contraceptive, but find it difficult or impractical to adhere perfectly to a timed, daily schedule.

For the first twelve weeks of use, it is advised to take the Centchroman pill twice per week. From the thirteenth week on, it is taken once per week. The consensus is that backup protection in the first month is a cautious but sensible choice.


Effectiveness

Clinical trial users experienced a failure rate of less than 2%, a rate which is comparable to hormonal birth control pills.


Manufacture and marketing


Centchroman was first manufactured by Torrent Pharmaceuticals, and marketed under the trade name Centron®. Centron was discontinued. A new license for Centchroman was given to Hindustan Latex Ltd., which now manufactures Centchroman under the trade name Saheli®.

I can feel the pill doing strange stuff to my body. Ive hard a headache non-stop for 3 days now. Sometimes it fades like after waking up from a nap and sometimes, its sooo bad. I’ve been relying on painkillers right now. Today, it was so bad, i had to take my prescription med. Im not telling anyone though.
I can feel my appetite increasing. I need to start weighing myself everyday. yes, everyday.
Every single day, i have a stomach ache. today i had it but it wasnt serious
My boobs are very sensitive im also keeping my eye on them. If they start getting bigger, im getting off the fucking pill.

Umm i think that’s it. I just wanted to rant. I dont have the money for the patch but i might have to get it or just not get on any birth control. the doctor was hoping the pill would fix some of the damages done by depo…I also have to find out about cenchtroman. This is a none hormonal 
BCP available only in India at the moment. Im tired of hormones and the doctor said they cant let me
 get an IUD because i’ve not had kids. 

Anyhoo, im going to give this pill thing 1 month!  

Well, i will be spending ALL my money tomorrow so i decided to buy some things online cos i wont have time to go from store to store. I just ordered:

-Stila illuminating powder foundation
-NARS oil free foundation

Will post more purchases at the end of today. Places i will be going to:
-walmart to buy Dotun’s MP3 player and some veggies and fruits
-Macys to buy some outfits…
-MAC counter to buy ANY electric blue eye liner they have! i need one badly
-Maybe target?

MAC - NW43/45
Christian Dior - 800 (mocha)
Lancome - Suede 4 (C)
Mary Kay – 607 (bronze)
Avon – Beautiful Bronze
Revlon – Cappucino
Stila – J for foundation and L for concealer. For the illuminating foundation, 100 watts
Prescriptives virtual matte – fresh antelope

I love this show soo much. I cant believe i just started watching it this season. i think so far,
its only one episode that hasnt made me cry. I think all Tv shows should be like this. Im not saying that im engulfed in the show. It just something that draws you in and touches
 you in a way. Im not sure how to explain it. I love McChocolate’s relationship with his gf . 
It’s nice to see people that dont bail when there’s problems. Ok, im crying now 

Random thoughts of today:
I need to delete Jim from my friend’s list on facebook. There is absolutely no reason why i have him on there. 
I keep trying to stop talking to him but i cant help it. Im going to try one more time. I dont care 
how he is, i dont care if he dies (and im serious…ok. at this moment.lol) and i need to back away…slowly. He’s coming home for thanksgiving and 
its just hitting me. 
I dont want to talk to him or grab a coffee or eat lunch or go to the movies or hang out. We do that and from there, he starts his 
mental manipulation. wtf? im stronger than that and i can handle this. So umm yeah when im 
ready ill delete him on facebook.
-Im so happy that i work tomorrow and after that, wednesday then thanksgiving
-This chick wants to hang out tomorrow before work but im not in the mood.
-I spoke with my advisor and unfortunately, i cant take more than 21 hours
-No nausea today. yay! I ate a huge meal before taking that pill
-Im bored but not sleepy
-I have money ready for some hardcore shopping on friday. I hope i have enough left
to buy makeupMy mom is soooo annoying
Hmm…i just realised it…im lonely tonight http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gtvj47OjTrE
-I’ll watch the video, read a novel and go to bed

I broke out BADLY when this new season began. I continued using the old stuff but i decided to change up and my face is kinda getting better. Im not sure why this happened but this is my current regimen. Well after all the raves, i tried complex 15 and it was too heavy for my face.

WINTER REGIMEN
Morning:
Olive/castor oil wash
-Sea breeze to tone. Its very strong but it dries out the zits
-Moisturise with Neutrogena healthy skin moisturiser mixed with Neutrogena sunscreen with spf 55

Night:
-Wash with Dior foaming cleanser or clearasil. Im not sure if the clearasil is working because i just bought it. The dior is nearly finished and i dont have 26 bucks right now.
-Apply 10% BP

SUMMER REGIMEN
Morning:
1. Washing with Christian Dior self foaming cleanser
http://makeupalley.com/product/showreview.asp/ItemID=68790/Eau_Moussante__Self-Foaming_Cleanser/Christian_Dior/Cleansers/
2. Moisturise with Clinique dramatically different moisturising gel mixed with Neutrogena sunscreen with spf 55

Night:
1. Wash with foaming cleanser
2. Tone and remove makeup
3. Apply Paula Beguion BHA liquid

Random thoughts:
This is frustrating because sephora has a sale (faimily and friends discount. everything online is 20% off). Ive never been in a sephora store. I really want to try out Nars foundations. I could buy a shade that i "think" is my shade but it would be too much trouble. Maybe i can get to store before the 26th (end of sale) to try on stuff then order online
-I need to start my paper. Or i could do like i did with the last one. start writing with 1 more hour before deadline and i got a C paper. I need to do better therefore, i need to start now!!
-I need to practice Microsoft access stuff
-I need to drink the HUGE bottle of water i keep staring at
-MUA sucks. i cant believe they banned me because of the sex posts i made the other day. I was on the phone while making the posts and i totally forgot to follow the rules. I signed up again and ive announced my new username but im deifnitely not posting anymore pics. Too much trouble
-i like this new makeup website i found
-I love DGSC
-Shimmie is getting on my nerves. Im so mean but every post she make sis sooo stupid and clueless, i just go ahead and rate it "1 star"
-I really need to start on that essay
-Uh…i just realized its past 1 am and im so not sleepy
-Well i wasnt going to put this but whatever….its freaking me out more and more that HE had been reading my blog. See thats what i mean by when i say i have a slow reaction to stuff….
- I just read this email he sent me on facebook and i just want to ravage him Comments (0)

Today is my first day of getting on the pill. I took my 1st at 8pm tonight. I hope i can keep it up and i hope i dont get the type of side effects i got from depo

My face is breaking out badly. Im thinking that the only good thing depo did was clear my skin. Im going to start taking MSM again today and ill start drinking water again. Ugh. This sucks….*off to puritan’s pride to order vitamins*

Since i have allergies when it comes to perfumes (migraines), im going to make a list of those ive tested and bought and havent given me headaches. Ill also post the ones that gave me headaches.

GOOD:
DKNY Cashmere mist


BAD:
Dior addict
Dior Pure poison. poison was fine for a few days before the headaches started
Lolita Lempicka
Chanel coco mademoiselle
Vera Wang princess


ON HOLD:
Aquolina pink sugar

Alright, i have a few minutes before i go to work. i was bored and decided to do a quick make up face. I used expensive pink, amber lights, humid e/s, black tied e/s, deep blue green pigment and green brown pigment.

applied expensive pink all over, amber lights into crease, green brown right above amber lights. black tied on inner lid, humid on mid lid and deep blue green on outer lid. finished with BB ivy shimmer and mascara. will post pics when i get home later tonight.

face: ambering rose blush

I dont think i posted a november wishlist but i need some stuff so i have no choice but to create another wishlist.
1. Digital Camera. Im looking at the casio exilim. Or maybe the sony cybershot. I like the exilim because its really slim and im so used to casio cameras. Ill probably buy it in January when i get back from nigeria cos i dont have money now. Or i might ask my dad to give me one for xmas. Check!

2. Lancome Color ID foundation
http://www.lancome-usa.com/_us/_en/catalog/makeup_color-id-makeup.htm

3. Aztec indian healing clay
http://www.vitaminshoppe.com/store/en/browse/sku_detail.jsp?id=SW-1001
Ill add more to the list later.