Girly Crap

Soo….When i was looking for dresses online, i had to look for shoes cos i realized my only dressy shoes were the black eagle and pink pearl ones. So i bought these!! The UPS man just dropped ‘em off:







And i got these token ones. I didnt have any black round toe pumps so um, yup!










Aiight, no more shoes for the next 2 months cos i dont have a job. SO umm, off to watch American Idol!! ****muah****


ETA: Check out this purse. Gorgeous. Since i have like only 1 black handbag, maybe i should start buying black ones?
 but black is so ..... bleh

Alright, so i applied for the nordie’s card again. They pulled experian
which is like the lowest!! And guess what, 
that took 6 points. Wtf is wrong with them. Then Barclays took out 10 points. Bastids.
Anyhoo, im expecting either a card or a denial letter. 
Someone pulled my transunion and they took out 3 points. Just checked and it was chase bank. 

"She had these clothes on and i didn’t understand" – Mario

I watched this show for the first time. Umm wow. Some of the guys were kinda hot in a geekish way but they were totally socially inept. IMO, that’s is what draws me to them. They are so fucking weird. LOL

So i e-filed….and I’m getting more than i expected. And i should have enough to pay my debts and left over to save.
I’m having the worst period ever. I just want someone to hit me with a club and fucking kill me. I feel like shit, i feel gross and I’m going through so many tampons its unbelievable. It was the same way last month and its weird because it happens only on the 2nd day and by the 3rd day, its like i didn’t even have a period. It sucks being a girl especially at this moment. No one fucking understands. This fucking sucks and i hate this shit.
2 tests today and i will continue with the stupid keyboarding lessons. I’m hoping i can finish 9 chapters today.
I need to go to Clayton state to make the bastards send my transcript to GPC. I need to call GPC to find out what they want and i need to go to the Decatur
campus
to see if they have more departments and buildings than Clarkston. It really doesn’t matter cos
Clarkston is too far.
I’m counting the days till February 15 so i can know if I’m getting the job or not. I know I’m getting it by God’s grace. If there’s a God.
Which reminds me, is there really a God? or I’m just wasting my time and energy praying to someone/something that doesn’t exist. Ive been thinking about this lately. And there was a time i was praying and i stopped and was like, wtf I’m i doing? i don’t even know if this thing exists.

So i e-filed….and im getting more than i expected. And i should have enough to pay my debts and left over to save.

Im having the worst period ever. I just want someone to hit me with a club and fucking kill me. I feel like shit, i feel gross and im going through so many tampons its unbelievable. It was the same way last month and its weird because it happens only on the 2nd day and by the 3rd day, its like i didnt even have a period. It sucks being a girl especially at this moment. No one fucking understands. This fucking sucks and i hate this shit.

2 tests today and i will continue with the stupid keyboarding lessons. im hoping i can finish 9 chapters today.

I need to go to clayton state to make the bastards send my transcript to GPC. I need to call GPC to find out what they want and i need to go to the decatur
 campus
 to see if they have more departments and buildings than clarkston. It really doesnt matter cos 
clarkston is too far. 


Im counting the days till february 15 so i can know if im getting the job or not. I know im getting it by God’s grace. If there’s a God.

Which reminds me, is there really a God? or im just wasting my time and energy praying to someone/something that doesnt exist. Ive been thinking about this lately. And there was a time i was praying and i stopped and was like, wtf im i doing? i dont even know if this thing exists.

So I was supposed to get my period yesterday. It didnt come so to get my mind off it, i went shopping this morning. I tried on a few dresses. I fell in love with this one but it tooo dressy and its kinda tight in the boob area. 






I liked the train at the back. very nice.

Now this is one of the 2 dresses i got. Sorry the mirror at Macys is dirty. ugh



hmm..my head look kinda big here.

The other one is more red is kinda casual. I kinda dress it up or down. Might take pics later.

When i was leaving, i decided to stop by the MAC counter and i bought 2lipglosses and 1 eyeshadow.
1 lustreglass in springbean. It looks green but goes on gold on my lips. Isnt it pretty?


1 chromeglass in pulsesetter. Its from the Chrome & Creme collection.



 and the eyeshadow in carbon. 


So yeah i felt better after everything and when i got home, my period had started. yay

Well, i submitted my application for the fall semester of GPC, dekalb campus this morning. And oh, im using something different on my skin. Lets see how it will work.Still having a shitty day.

Weeeeel, it was 2.30 am and i was bored. And since i always do foolish things when im bored, i did something. I took pics of my ex and his wife posted it on MUA! And we had a lot of fun bashing them. I would post the pics here
 but i dont wanna. Anyhoo,
this is the one that proposed to every single girl he dated. 2 were stupid
 enough to say yes and one was stupid enough to marry him. 

Well, i washed my twist extensions last night. I put into 6 braids and held with ponytail holders. My Kenra Clarifying shampoo is finished and since im broke, no new one for now. Luckily, i had a suave clarifying shampoo under the sink so i lathered each section and massaged into the hair and my scalp. I did this for about 15 minutes before rinsing out. I then poured some white vinegar into a bowl of water and put my head in it. then i took a smaller bowl and used to pour over my head. Then i slathered Kenra moisturising conditioner and massaged it in. I rinsed but didnt rinse it all off.

I twoel dried, applied jamaican leave in conditioner and some castor oil. Blow-dried for a few minutes, wore a microfiber turban and went to bed!!. Woke up this morning and it was like 3/4 dry. Its 11.30 pm and its all dry now

I had my mouth open and was crying within 5 secs of today’s episode!! I swear!! Why Why Why? I have a feeling Carly will say yes. 

I need a dress. Something that is NOT black. I will prob go in to try out a few at some stores tomorrow 
but i was searching online anyway. These are the ones i saw.

This one, i like the color but….it has a sort of lingerieish look which i dont like



This one i like too. The brown color will go with my pale pink shoes


I love this green color but i have a black dress with a similar top design



This is the one im most drawn to. Color will go with my pink shoes and its just so classy and elegant



I also like this one. Its gorgeous and simple but i dont like that thing hanging in the back. And its more my age


This i like but its like a bridesmaid dress and too over the top




Nice color but…

2 minutes after i got home some guy knocked on the door. He was wearing a hood and was about my height. i opened the door a tiny bit asked who it was and he said "me. open the door". so i closed it back and called 911. my brother also went back to check and he was still there. by the time the cops came, he was gone.

I dont know who it was and i didnt sleep until 7 and woke back up at 10. no more night trips for me till we move out of this shithole!


And i told him about it. I posted on the boards and they advised me to get a pepper spray and mace which are sold in collge bookstores. (i never knew that) and he said i was over reacting. Omg, you’re like so concerned for me. wtf?

Wow. I decided to upload Windows professional on my laptop because when i bought it, the info of the seller was still on it and i had to connect manually to the internet every single time i turned it on.

I had taken my old laptop to the school hub last year and the guy left his windows xp cd in the laptop and of course i didnt return it

The stupid CD keys i had for XP home didnt work and the one for professional did so i uhh….googled and found a key….and…it worked. o_o. Lappy is wayy faster now

Well, i now the key is authentic because i was able to download IE 7 and windows defender

Well, by God’s grace, i will be graduating Summer quarter 07’ Im so happy. It’s going to be like 1 year when im done. 
Right now, im taking the 4th quarter and i have 2 more to go. During 
the last quarter, i would have started classes at GPC
 so i plan on taking online classes at Dekalb tech. Im so happy!!

Im taking 4 courses at the moment and im trying my best. One is some stupid keyboarding class. Which reminds me, i have to go start keyboarding lessons. wtf.

My face looks like shit so im looking into trying something different. Im not sure if its the cold weather or if its because i got off depo.

http://www.drugstore.com/products/prod.asp?pid=44782&catid=20&brand=14660&trx=PLST0-BRAND&trxp1=20&trxp2=44782&trxp3=1&trxp4=0&btrx=BUY-PLST-0-BRAND

Can be found at walmart, walgreens and other drugstores. Luckily, the pills are tasteless.

Wtf?! My mom is getting on my nerves. I need money to go buy my textbook at school tomorrow. My dad had told her to give me a certain amount before we left. I knew she going to start acting shady so i brought it up on the morning we were leaving. She gave me only 100 bucks so i asked for the rest and she was asking me about some money i had from last year. umm…how is it your business?! Just give me the freaking money that dad told you to give me. Thennnnnn she called my dad! Lol. She was blabbing and my dad started lecturing me on spending money on makeup and clothes and then said "i already told her to give you the money". Jeez. All that trouble for a couple hundred of dollars. Ick

Im delighted!! I found a new forum. Its for gays and gossips. yum
-How did i spend my day? I loafed a round a bit until a friend called. He bought a house so we went to but some furniture. I spoke with him last night and he chose not to tell me he bought a house until today!! Bastid. Its 3 bedroom, 2 and 1/2 bath and he’s not married or dating so there LOTS of space for me. lol
-Not having a job is fun. I kinda feel like a stay at home wife. Haha
-I cant wait for my W2s so i can file for my tax return
-I need to call a few people but i dont feel like it.
-I have promised that i’ll try and talk to more people on the phone and hang out with them this year but i dont feel like it. I guess im just a loner
-OMFG!! Jason Lewis is totally kissing a guy on brothers and sisters!! i love this show. LOL
-Tomorrow, im going to the mall to do more shopping with my friend. He promised to buy me a dress. Yay!!
-With the way im just eating and laying around, 
im gonna be really really fat by the time i get a job. lol

Im 3 months post relaxer today

I dunno, im getting depressed. I need a job so bad. it sucks not having any money. I know when i had a job, i wasnt exactly rich but still, i was spending something. Its depressing. I dont even feel like chilling, relaxing or doing anything fun until i get a freaking job. If i end up hanging out with anyone, ill be bad company.

Im not getting desperate now but if it gets that bad, i might have to call up some old friends

SO i woke up at 7 am today. Weird. I was online for a while. chatted with Wale. checked out my text books then ate brunch. We went to the GPC Clarkston campus to ask some admission questions for me and my brother. I think i prefer the decatur campus only because its closer. We then went to some other places i forgot (lol) and then i had to go get drugs cos i have a sore throat and cold coming up. Just took them now btw so i hope it works.

We went to a thrift store where my mom bought 3 paper back best sellers, 2 sexy tops and 1 gown for me. How nice of her. We got home around 4.30 so now im just chilling. Im cooking wild rice that i brought from Nigeria and completing my GPC application.

Within 1 hour, pinecone sent me 3 surveys. I wish i was able to get online more because throughout the vac, they sent me about 15. Thats 65 bucks. I finished the 3 surveys and im waiting to get paid. Thank God i need only 3 textbooks. All 3 are approximately $150 if i buy them used from what i can see from the prices online. Oh, check out these shoes from piperlime. Fuck! I hate being broke. I need a sugar daddy right now.







Umm i spoke with Kyle and he has started going to the gym….?

The stop over at Amsterdam was fun. The airport was really cool. Coller than Hartsfield jackson. I wish i took pic but i was too tired. My mom and i took showers at one of the hotels in the airport for $18 each. It wasnt my money so i didnt care. We got to Atlanta around 9. The security at memphis wasnt as bad as atlanta and because our flight to atl was local, we didnt hav to go through all that thank God. The luggages came quickly and my brother was right outside waiting. We went striaght to the bank and my mom gave me 100 bucks. Im still broke

It felt good to be back home and to talk to HIM again. I missed HIM a lot…..sigh….

Im kinda worried cos i need a job. I dont know what’s going to happen. Ive called Alfredo but he’s off today so ill call him tomorrow.

my cell phone hasnt been disconnected…..yet. As soon as i woke up at 7am this morning, i listed 2 of my textbooks on ebay and within 2 hours, someone had bought one. I now have money to pay my cell phone bill and some change.

I just got offline from chatting with Wale. We chatted for about an hour and it was good to hear from him. I will call Bosun as soon as im settled. He’s in Indiana, i dont know where that is…..

Im going out later to take the textbook to the PO, go to bloomingdales and go to school to check out my textbooks

Today was VERY long. Everyone was awake by 6am and my dad dragged and threatened me so i had to get up too around 8. We dropped my brother off on campus and went to the eye clinic. We got there around 11am and didnt leave until like 2pm. Terrible. Eventually, they did some tests on his eye and its still pretty the same results. His right eye is nearly gone. As in the nerves are damaged and its permanent. I even cried. he keeps procrastinating until it got THAT bad. He was supposed to undergo an operation to save whatever’s left of his vision in december but he didnt so he rescheduled to february.

Anyhoo, we left there and went back to campus and by then, i had a killer headache. OMG! Which reminds me!! I havent taken my BCP So yeah i havent had too many headaches during my time here. ill say like twice compared to nearly everyday in the US. HE replied to my email. Probably because he knew i was upset he didnt reply. LOL. I cant wait to see him. i couldnt sleep last night cos i took 4 excedrin so i wrote in my journal concerning US. There are 2 issues that is bothering me that we need to discuss. They’re important to me but might not be to me.

Did i mention that bloomies sent me an email about an open position? i replied and told them i was out of the country and asked if the position would still be available when i get back and the lady replied saying i should come in as soon as i get back to talk to her. Im guessing thats good news. I really want to work for nordies but i plan to go to both places on the 11th. I hate not having a job and depending on people for money.

Yes, i have taken more than 100 pics. Some to load online and most to print out. I have 8 more slots on my 256mb memory card. I have an extra 64mb one i’ll start using if i need to.

We have to wake up at 6am tomorrow morning because we have to go get our twists. Its going to take about 5 hours with 3 people doing it. ugh. I hope they do it well and i hope after 2 or 3 months, my hair would have grown about an inch or more when i take them out.

The security guard got drunk again today….sigh

I signed up for hi5 again because a lot of people convinced me to. Its also a good way to stay in touch with old school mates. And i found Wale’s brothers on there. He’s also on there. The brother sent me an email to say whats up and gave me his number. Ummk. Im sure he’ll tell his brother or whatever.

We were supposed to go to the movies today but we had visitors. I hope we dont have any more tomorrow. Jeez. it was cool though cos aunty Morin brought their daughter and she played with my makeup. LOL. I even took pics.

6 more days. Im excited. I need to get some tops tailored from scratch but i havent even bought the materials yet. I need about 4 or 5 to make different tops in different colors and styles. I was going to convert one of my mom’s but she refused because it’s expensive.

Niyi came by today and we just chilled out and talked. So he brought up what it was he wanted to talk to me about. Yes, you’ll be coming to the US in March and No, i cant date you because i already have a long line to go through. joking But yeah, umm, i did admit that as far as i know, i dont really have a bf at the moment this year cos i havent heard from HIM so far this year. I think thats a valid reason. I dont care. I knew the distance would take a toll but what can i do. I REFUSE to call, email or text him. Ive done enough.

We’re going to visit my Grand uncle tomorrow and i hope my cousin will be around so we can catch up on old times.

Im sure if i had posted this before but Kyle called me. I was very surprised.

Yep, 6 more days.

Just finished paying my electric bill and credit card bills and now i need to convince my dad to pay my cell phone bill too.

My attitude is kind of "i dont give a shit" right now and has been for the past few days. I need to get my shit together. School, job and myself. I dont need any complications from men or boyfriends. Especially those that cant take time to reply to emails or offline messages.

Yes, im in a shitty mood hence, the blogging. This is definitely going to help.

-Im so excited. School is starting soon and i cant wait to devote my time and energy into it. Ive talked with my dad and we decided that ill register for classes at GPC and dekalb tech at the same time for fall. So ill be going to 2 colleges. That will be my last quarter at dekalb tech and i’ll have an AAT degree in finance. Just to make me feel like i havent been going to school for nothing.

Well, this is my 3rd week of being on Saheli. I have good news. I got a real period. I havent spotted 1 drop since i started, and my boobs arent increasing. lol. Im getting mood swings though. Im not sure if its the BCP or if its me. I got a 3 day period (this is normal for me). It was more like 2 and 1/4 days. LOL. I was expecting it to continue but i was surprised and im still surprised cos im not even spotting. This is amazing. Im very happy. Even though im not sexually active and dont plan to be for a while, im still going to stay on it just for the sake of being on BCP :D